The Meaning Of Five Posts?

I haven't been sleeping very well again.  It's not insomnia this time, but instead I am having a recurring dream...sort of.  More like a recurring theme really.  I can't figure out what it means.

I used to have recurring dreams as a kid.  Three different ones, and every once in a blue moon I will still have one of those three dreams.  One of those is I am walking across a kitchen floor we used to have made of tile, and as I step the tiles fall away to either side showing ocean underneath.  The second was again with water...I would dream of a white gorilla swimming in a lake like a diver.  The last was the most puzzling of all.  It was like one of those op art posters from decades ago that had the circle design and if you looked at it long enough it looked like a propeller in the center....well the dream was two of those with a line across.  The line would start to vibrate and hum.  The hum would get loud of enough to wake me up.  I have no idea what any of them represented.

Later in life if I would have recurring dreams I started to take notice of them.  The first one that impacted me was in high school.  I dreamt of a guy sitting under a tree reading a book for five nights in a row.  I happened to be in the book store that weekend and low and behold there was the exact guy.  I didn't speak to him, but when I noticed him he was staring at me with recognition as well.  In retrospect I wish I had talked to him.  It would have been interesting to know for sure if he had been dreaming of me too.  I was too shy at that point in life, and I left...never to see him again.  So why did I dream of a complete stranger?

Jump forward quite a few years and I began dreaming of a tornado coming at me every night for a week leading up to a show I was going to.  This time I was older and wiser and finally consulted a dream dictionary.  (Who figures this stuff out?)  Anyway...the book said that dreaming of a tornado meant that you were feeling turmoil about work.  That seemed reasonable so I didn't give it much more thought until I was driving home from the show.  Half way through Kansas, a tornado literally set down on my car.  Since then I have paid more attention to my recurring dreams.  Apparently my subconscious has more knowledge than my conscious.  A few years later, three nights in a row before a show I had the tornado dreams again.  I was a nervous wreck.  This time the tornado set down in a field across the road from me in New Mexico.  Needless to say tornado dreams make me extremely uneasy now!

The past three nights I have had dreams that while not the same, had a similar action.  I keep dreaming I am banging away on five posts with the flat of my hands...almost like bongo drums.  But I know my intent is not to make music.  There is more to each dream, but when I wake up all I remember is the part about the posts, and I have an uneasy feeling.  In the first dream I was in some sort of rocky outdoor place and the five posts were made of wood, like short logs.  They were painted red and I was banging away on them for some reason.  The next night I was in someplace that was black and glittery...like a nightclub after it had closed.  The posts were silver metal and very ornate.  The tops were domed this time and looked like giant pearls.  Last night I am not sure what sort of place I was in, but the posts were carved and black...like onyx tikis or something.  Again I was banging away on them, and in the same order each time.  It's as if it's a code or I am trying to open something.  I just don't know.

I am utterly mystified as to what my psyche is trying to tell me, or why I feel uneasy about it.  Whatever it is, at least this time I am fairly certain it doesn't involve bad weather!

Good Things And Bad Things

Boy what a crazy week!  First of all I want to thank everyone who came and supported the Blooming Bear Show.  The turnout was stellar and a huge number of bears got adopted.  So on the behalf of the bears, myself and all the artists participating I would like to thank you from the bottom of my heart!

Of course beyond the happiness of a bear show, the world was just in chaos with all the happenings in Japan and the ensuing tsunami that hit so many places.  I can't even tell you how badly I feel for these people.  I have been to Japan, and it's a beautiful country with lovely people and my heart just goes out to them.  How much more can they possibly take between the earthquake, the nuclear reactor situations, the tsunami and now a volcano!  It seems like it's just one terror heaped on another terror on another...I have been watching the news and wishing I could just go over there and wrap my arms around every single one of them and make it better in every way possible.  But unfortunately there is only so much we can do to ease their suffering from a world away.

Both the show and the things going on in the world have left me feeling a bit exhausted.  R drug me out of the house today.  I have been here most of the week working like mad, and he felt I needed an outing.  I went and got a new smart phone.  I really wasn't keen on getting one, but I realized when I go to the show in May I would probably need an alternate way to have people pay since not everyone uses cash or checks anymore. 

After that he took me to On The Border, which is one of our favorite restaurants.  If you haven't tried the brisket grilled enchiladas, you don't know what you're missing. 

We made a final stop at Target so I could pick up a corned beef for St. Patrick's Day.  I am Irish after all, gotta have it once a year!  I wanted to go there because the one I got from there was really good. 

I also needed to buy a new scale.  I stepped on mine this morning and it said I weighed 103 pounds.  Now that might be nice, but I know it isn't even remotely close to true.  In my entire adult life I have never weighed 103 pounds!  When I got the new one out I discovered I was actually 9 pounds lighter than I thought though.  So that was good.  I had a feeling that mine was weighing too heavy...well at least until this morning. 

I think at this point what I need is some really good sleep.  I had insomnia last week for several days.  In fact I have an odd little side note about that.  My doctor gave me some sleeping pills for when I have insomnia.  I don't like to take them, but if I go too many days without proper sleep I will break down and take one.  They usually knock me out for 8-10 hours and I wake up feeling groggy and drug out for several hours after.  But when I took one the other night I woke up after about 2 1/2 hours which surprised me.  I was wide awake, and I remember I had been having an odd dream where it seemed as if I was sitting up high, like in a tree maybe and I was peering through some tropical foliage down into water where some boats were.  The boats were rocking very hard and some were on their side.  That's all I remember about it, but I had an odd sense of uneasiness.

After I woke up I came downstairs and was watching TV and playing around on a forum I go to.  Someone came on and said that Japan had been hit with the earthquake about 45 minutes before.  Oddly enough, I had been up for exactly 46 minutes.  A similar thing happened years ago.  I had been getting ready for a bear show in Kansas and every night for a week before the show I had a dream about a tornado.  I passed it off as pre-show jitters.  On the way home from that show a tornado set down on my car.  Go figure.

So I am going to quit rambling and head to bed.  Hopefully I will sleep dream free!

Have a lovely day all!  Hugs, K. <3

Pink Elephants, Blue Whales & Pearly Whites

As you know I had a difficult month, but with some luck the tide is turning.  I woke up early.  I knew I had an appointment to keep and I never sleep well when I have to be somewhere, I am always afraid I am going to over sleep and be late.  Plus I had the strangest dream about an old boyfriend I hadn't thought of in years.  I don't know what that was about.  The subconscious is an odd thing in it's ability to dig stuff out of old files you didn't even remember you had.

Today I went and got my new crown fitted.  Keep your fingers crossed that it stays put!  I can't afford to keep buying crowns, they are expensive little things.  Plus this whole not being able to eat anything solid was really starting to wear on me after so many weeks of it.

When I was done I stopped at one of my favorite shops and found a blue whale ring, while I like whales pretty well...a couple years ago I saw a blue whale ring online and thought it was the cutest thing ever.  I don't know why, it's not the sort of thing I usually buy.  But I have looked at it a few times over the past couple years.  Today they happened to have one in the shop!  All things really do come to those who wait!  It fit perfectly, so naturally it came home with me.  I had been so good too darnit!   I have him on the wrong hand and wrong finger for the pic, but it's surprising how hard it is to photograph your own hand.  Also don't mind the Hello Kitty band aid...I stabbed a scissor point into my finger yesterday.

When I got home there was a package waiting on the porch.  I LOVE packages!!!  They are always filled with wondrous things, and I certainly wasn't disappointed.  Inside was a little pink elephant that had to come and live at my house from Kelly Jo at Tickled Pink Bears.  Isn't she cute as pie!  Interestingly enough she is similar in shape to one of the two new patterns I just designed.  Although mine isn't an elephant.

I was going to work on one of the new designs tonight since I have a fun idea, but I am just too tired.  So I am off to bed early to make up for getting up early.  The new pattern will just have to wait until tomorrow!

Hugs, K <3