Offhand Comments

I woke up this afternoon feeling great!  I had my bi-annual checkup the other day and the doctor was so proud of me for losing another ten pounds since I had been in last.  I have to have check up's twice a year due to my meds.

Since last October I have lost 22 pounds.  I have been doing it slowly, changing my eating habits and trying to get off my duff more often.  I want it to stick. 

I put on my capri boyfriend jeans when I got up.  Last year I had ordered them online and when they arrived they were very small for the size they are and I couldn't even get them on.  A while back I was able to start wearing them.  This morning I noticed they were baggy in butt and sliding down my hips.  So I decided to go subject myself to the torture of looking for jeans.  I have pants issues...they are always too big in the waist.

Before I left, I got an e-mail.  It had a picture taken of me last week  attached to it.  I looked at it and just about started crying.  I went from feeling good and proud to HOMIGOLLY someone harpoon that whale and end the torture! 

It kind of set the tone for the rest of the day.  Most of us have been there though.  I didn't even buy jeans, I bought a sweater to hide the whale blubber.  Sigh~

Still feeling a tad raw later this evening, I was on the sofa when Gypsy, my cat who loves me more than anything, came up and started rubbing against me purring.  I picked her up and I said "Gypsy doesn't think Momma is fat do you...you think I am just perfect the way I am."  (Which is such a nice thing about pets, they love you unconditionally!)  I wish chubby looked as cute on me as it does her!

Gypsy answered with more purring and rubbing.  BUT...R looked up from his paper and very casually, quietly, matter of factly said "So do I."  He went back to reading his paper.  He didn't even see the big lone tear that slid down my cheek.

It was such a sweet, genuine comment and it made me feel so good.  Sometimes those offhand, un-thought out comments that people give can be the very best thing in the world.  They mean so much more than a thought out one.  R completely turned my day back around, and I don't think he even realized it.  That's part of the reason I love him so much!

So I ended up ordering some jeans this evening.  I hope they fit...if they don't, maybe they will by next year!