Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Panic Mode

The hours are ticking by way too fast today. 8 AM is fast approaching and I have noticed I have achieved panic mode. I can't think clearly, I feel that overall cold chill you get from fear and I am slightly shaky.

I am trying to not be afraid of tomorrow, but I am. They want me to take a Xanax to relax me before I come in, but in truth that's kind of adding to my anxiety. I have never taken a Xanax and I am not sure what it's going to do to me. Sometimes I have very odd reactions to drugs, so I try to take as few as possible.

I probably won't be making a post tomorrow or even possibly for a few days to come. I don't really know how I am going to feel after the procedure. So if there is silence for a few days, just know I am sleeping and healing.

Wish me luck, I am going to need it! Also if anyone has ever taken Xanax, please tell me what it does to you.

Thanks, K. <3

4 comments:

Heather said...

Good Luck!!! I'm sure you'll be fine :)

Xanax makes you mellow. :)

Kelly said...

Mellow is good...unconscious would be better!

Amanda said...

Not sure of the time difference but I hope you go on OK, it could be happening as I type. All the best.

Carmen said...

Good luck!

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