Stuck

 

I think that whatever we do in this world, we are always going to be faced with challenges.  Even when it's something you love.  When it's not something you love, it's even harder when those challenges present themselves.   I know that when we are presented with them, they are tests and we need to do all we can to pass through the difficulty in the best way possible.  But sometimes it can seem overwhelming.

I find myself  in that position right now.  I know I recently went through some true challenges with everything my family was going through, but that's different.  In those situations you have to be strong.  It's not even a question.

Nope I am having difficulty with some smaller challenges right now.  The first one is cleaning.  The problem is I am an artist.  Artists tend to amass stuff.  STUFF! I don't even know how it happens.  You just go out innocently into the world and you find a little thing here and there and you bring it home.  All of a sudden you have a ridiculous amount of stuff!  I have been trying to clean the spare room/photography studio/overflow closet/library.  I keep trying to sort through it and get rid of what I don't need, but it's so overwhelming.  My whole house is like that.  

But this brings me to my second challenge, which is tied in with all the rest.  My diet.  As you know if you have been reading my blog and/or facebook I am doing this HA2CG diet and detox.  I am not finding it that hard to eat healthy.  But I am finding it hard to only eat 500 calories a day.  They said I wouldn't be hungry with the drops.  Everyone says it's so much easier to do it than I think it will be.  Well you know what...it's not.  I am HUNGRY.  Plus I get light headed and I have absolutely no energy.  I don't like that feeling.  But I paid a lot to do this, and it is working.  It's just that some days I don't know if I can do this.  I have three more weeks of it.  That is a long time when you're hungry and fatigued.  Plus when R is home, he is eating things in front of me that I can't have.  I have never wanted a hot dog so bad in all my life.  I don't like hot dogs very much.  I got sick on one as a kid once, and went years without eating one.  Now...I would rick roll your Mother for one!  Do people really make it through six weeks of this diet on 500 calories a day without ever cheating?  I can't imagine how they do it.

My third challenge is that I feel old.  Not just old, but old and fat and unappealing.  Normally that's not something I ever worry about.  But Saturday I had R take a pic of me in my new dress.  I was feeling pretty spiffy.  I had lost weight, gone down a size...and I was feeling good. I was going to show off my progress to my Mother.  Then I had him take a pic.  Ugh!  I didn't look anywhere near as good in the pic as I did in my mirrors.  It's amazing how your perception can change in an instant.  I know this is a side effect of all the other challenges I am facing and it will pass.  I will go back to my normal self soon enough.  But it really tore down my usually good self esteem.  =/  In order to try to combat that I posted the picture to Facebook.  It was hard and it took me a couple hours to get up the nerve to do it.  Plus I cropped it so you can't see my big ole backside!

Lastly, I am facing a challenge in trying to work.  I know that again it's a side effect of all the other challenges.  I am so overwhelmed by all the other things I need to do that I can't seem to clear my head and focus on work.  I haven't made anything in a couple weeks.  I have ideas, I just can't seem to get there.  I feel guilty working when I know I have to finish cleaning.  But I don't have the energy to clean from the diet, then I feel useless...it's a viscous circle.  I am just stuck.  It's making me crazy because I am usually always in motion.

I know this too shall all pass, and I will eventually get everything done.  As long as I don't pass out from starvation first.

To leave you on a cheery note...I have been dancing around the 400 followers mark for a while.  When I finally hit it, I am going to do a give away!  So stay tuned for that.

At least now you know what's going on with me.  I will try to post again soon, but I want to be in a better and less challenging frame of mind when I do it!  Being stuck makes Kelly feel negative.  Sigh~

 

Tea Party

Hi everyone, I know I haven't been posting much.  R has been out of town all week.  He is coming home tomorrow and leaving again on Sunday.  I am going to be all alone on Valentines Day, for the first time in decades.  He isn't very happy about it either.  But I guess that's the price of being a valuable asset to the company.  I am proud of him, but I miss him.

I have been cleaning, working and exercising all week...so there hasn't been much to tell.  The only outing I have coming up is a visit to Dr. de Sade (not his real name) Friday to let him turn me into a voodoo doll.  I have been going to a chiropractor for acupuncture every week.  It's not that enjoyable, but I do feel pretty good, so I guess it's working.

The next update will actually be the online show at http://www.teddiesworldwide.com/ coming up on March 23-25th.  I have been working hard and should have lots of nice pieces for you!

I will post again when I have something interesting to talk about!  In the mean time stay warm, and have a lovely day!

Hugs, Kelly

Working!

I just thought I would let you know that I have been working away and that's why I haven't posted much the past few days.  I have some interesting topics I want to talk about, but I have to finish the pieces for Wednesday's upate first. I am not sure one of them is quite going to make it in time.  They are taking so much longer than I thought they would.  But that's ok, I would rather take my time and do them the way I envision rather than rush through something.  You will see...in the mean time the pic above is a tiny hint.  No actual sneak peeks just yet though!

I am off to fall into bed very late today!  Hugs, K. <3

Quick Update

Hi all...I know I haven't been posting but it's because I have been getting the bears ready for the Blooming Bear Show Saturday and I had to get an ad done.  The good news is I am caught up finally!  At least for the moment.

I have Monet who is 12 inches and you saw him in the preview on the site.  If you haven't seen it you can do that by clicking the link to the right.  I also have 4 new little 7 inch bears done, and they came out so so SO cute!  All four are so sweet that I could happily keep them all right here at home.  But they want to go out into the world to seek their fortune, so who am I to stand in their way!  Only a few more days and you will get to see them too!

I got a new box of mohair today so I already have a new bear in the works.  I just cannot CANNOT stop making the new size.  But that means I will finally have one you can see before the show.

Stay tuned!  Hugs, K. <3

Behind Already

I have to confess I am having a hard time getting going this year.  I guess it's because I worked so hard on so many things last month, that I can't seem to motivate.  Plus things just keep taking time away from what I need to do. 

I got a Wii for Christmas and I can't quit playing Epic Mickey! Today I went for a nice long relaxation/hot stone massage and came home and promptly fell asleep on the sofa because I was so relaxed. 

Tomorrow I have to take the dogs to the groomer, and then R is home for the weekend. 

I have to go sew bears!!!  I also need to change my blog header and website to get rid of the Christmassy stuff.

Quick, someone say something to motivate me!

Busy Busy

I just wanted to give you a quick update.  I have been crazy busy getting the house ready for Christmas.  Lots of decorating and things to do.

I have also been having a bit of computer problems.  I think I have it solved...maybe.

I am hoping to be able to get some work in tomorrow.  Stay tuned!

Busy Busy!

I have two new patterns in the works today.  I am working on a new bear...which you can see above.  It's quite chubby!  Now keep in mind he or she hasn't been detailed yet.  In fact he or she isn't even done being distressed.  But hopefully by tomorrow you will be seeing it.

Also I am working on the new bird pattern.  So you should be seeing that very shortly too!

Playing Catch Up

The last few days I haven't gotten a whole lot done. I blame Dan Brown and my inability to put his newest book down. He writes such fun intellectual fluff, and the story keeps you wanting to know what the next puzzle is and what's behind the next door. Some of the plot points make me want to smack him in the head with the book and others I really enjoy. I managed to finish the book yesterday morning though, so it was time to get caught up on what I had been putting off.

I am working on two new pieces that should be done very soon. I am also cleaning the studio. It always tends to get messy, since I work there. When I am done with all that I need to do some cleaning.

Watch for new pieces soon...very soon! Also today is the last day for free shipping on my site.

Hugs, K. <3